Friday, July 20, 2012

No Kids! Oh the choices, the oppurtunities, the chances to get out...wait what?

So I get a break…for 2 weeks!! I was excited about it…to begin with. Now, a week into it, I am not so sure. Believe me – I am glad to get a break from the kids. I hope they are having fun at their grandparents. I do miss them but again I needed this break.



I had all these plans to do while the kids are done- a whole list. Have I done anything major on that list? No. I really don’t want to. I want to relax and sleep and not have to clean. I guess the absence of kids does not make my lack of fondness of cleaning disappear. LOL I did make an attempt today to get some things marked off that list. I still have a lot more to do though.


The other thing I was hoping was that this time without kids would create some romance in our marriage. I am always the one planning everything- every night we ever had without kids was me behind the scenes planning who was going where and then where we were going. I thought without the kids maybe he could be romantic and plan something. I have even given him ideas as to what kind of things I would enjoy, even specific things, like where we could go and where to stay. But all I get in return is we don’t have the money, it’s too expensive, why would I spend the night in a hotel when we have an empty house here, etc. I even told him flowers would work- they aren’t expensive and he hasn’t given me flowers for almost 10 yrs! He thinks flowers are a waste of money.


One of my friends suggested I make it happen. But that’s the point! I don’t want to make it happen. I am tired of planning everything. I want him to plan something!


I don’t think he gets how much I need this. I need him to be romantic, to show he loves me. He does still have a week until the kids get back. I hope I am not disappointed but I have a feeling I am going to be.


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